Hypoglycemia?

I was on my way to class today, after feeling weak and shaky all day, and after a nap, which only left me more tired than before. I was feeling slightly hungry, even though I had finished eating only an hour before, and realized that maybe all of the problems that seem to have gottne worse since I went to school ,may have to do with blood sugar problems. So I looked it up online, and found that low blood sugar can cause
a)trembling
b)headaches
c)depression
d)exhaustion
e)heart palpations/rapidly beating heart
f)constant hunger
g)lead to asthma( been experiencing wheezing lately)
those are only a few symptoms, but they all match what I have been feeling for a few years now, but they didn't bother me enough for me to do anything about it. When I finally thought about it and looked it up, it made sense, so I called my mom ,and she made some suggestions, all of which are going to require at least a slight diet change for now, and maybe a pretty drastic one later if it really is hypoglycemia, which means that I need to actually get up in the morning and eat breakfast before I leave the house. Not easy, since I am so tired all of the time, I get up at the absolute latest I can, meaning 20 min, before class, or 30 min. before work. so, please pray that I actually do this, so we can at least find out if a diet change helps.

Disappointed

The woman who played Sue Thomas on the PAX show Sue Thomas F.B.Eye, Deanne Bray, was someone I kind of looked up to, or at least respected for her ability to act and speak as well as she does. I also thought she was a Christian because of the content on the show. When I saw her on Sunday night Hallmark Hall of Fame movie "Sweet Nothing in my Ear" I decided to look her up on IMDB, and see what else she has been in. I was very disappointed to find out that she actually played a slightly significant character(or at least enough significance to warrant a name) in three episodes of The L Word, a series on SHO about lesbians living in LA. Now, granted, she could have played the part of a friend or family member, and it was only three episodes(I couldn't actually find any information on her character) but the fact that she can be associated with that show is upsetting, and very disappointing.

Thought I'd give it a try

So, how do u like the new signature? Emily and Sarah both have it, and I thought it looked nice, so here you go. :)

Cloud Nine :D

WOW!!! God is AMAZING!!! Today I was checking my e-mail, and there was an e-mail from Torrey. I thought it would just be another letter saying thank you for applying, sorry we didn't accept you...blah blah blah. You can imagine my surprise, and extreme excitement when it said that they had decided to re-open my file, and had admitted me!!! So, It's official, as long as we can pay for Biola( and I know God can handle this one too) I will be the third Moothart to be a part of the Torrey Honors Institute. :D

drained

Well, today was an eventful day. first, I called Biola to find out who to make the deposit checks out to and where to send them, then called my mom. She wrote down the information, then told me that I may not be able to go, because the money just isn't there. Even with me paying almost 8,000(depending on which building i get pt in, and what meal plan I choose. It's between 6 and 8) they just can't afford it. The school, for now, is only offering me 4500. They are waiting to hear back from my admissions counselor though, so prayers there would be appreciated. However, she said that even if they're able to get a loan to cover everything, they'd be paying it off for the next 30 years. My job? find as many scholarships as I can. Unfortunately, everything that makes me unique, or that I was involved in(i.e. AWANA) is not available as a scholarship. Now what, pray tell, did I spend the last 13 years of my life doing? Getting my Citation Award. And how is it helping me? It's not. Awana is the only organization NOT listed in those Scholarship matching websites, and sadly, Biola is not one of the Christian Universities who offer a scholarship for it. Dad said he would check with IBC to see if they could give me a scholarship, but he's pretty doubtful(by check, I mean he would find out, but I'd do all the talking). Add to that the rejection by Torrey today, and I'm left sobbing, wondering how it's all gonna work out. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Torrey

Well my parents got the letter today. It started out with the usual pleasantries like thank you for applying, we like your academic achievements, blah blah blah...and then...we regret to inform you that you have not been accepted into the Torrey Honors Institute. I could really use a hug right now, but everyone is gone. :'(

Car dealerships couldn't care less about you...

Especially if you don't have a lot of money to spend. I was looking online the other day, and went to a website that gave me the option of searching for cars by a certain price range. It gave me a listing of a 2000 Camry with 80,000 miles on it. Since the price range I was looking for was not higher than 5,000, even though the listing said to contact the dealership for the price, I thought it wouldn't be much above 5,000. The dealership called me later the same day, and I went to go look at it. The funny part is that I was mentally preparing myself for not buying the car, because I knew(or hought I knew) that they would do all they could to get me to make a down payment for the car right then, and then finance me for the rest. Little did I know that since I have very little in Savings, and don't make very much a month, they couldn't care less about me. When they found out my situation, they practically shooed me out the door. They weren't rude, they just made it obvious that I wasn't really worth their time. I had a hard time not laughing as I left.

Torrey Interview

I had my interview for Torey on Friday. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Dr. Spears came in and started making jokes immediately. Then we all introduced ourselves, and prayed before we began. We talked about the first chapter and the first half of the second chapter of First John. A couple of the big themes were "Truth" and "Fellowship". We talked about how fellowship is not just introductions, but really getting to know someone, and how truth has to do with the reality of a situation, like if I were to say that there's a pencil on the table, and there is, it's true, but if I were to say that someone is in a costume, and they're not, then it's false. So then if something is real, it's true. The rest of the interview was question and answer for us, so we got to know a little bit about the program, and how sessions will be run. All in all, I really liked it. I'll know if I got in in 1-2 weeks. :)