Saturday, August 8, 2009

I can't take this anymore...

I'm tired of you telling me I can't do it, I'm tired of you saying it's not worth my time, that I'm gonna "crash and burn" if I stay there. I realize that you don't understand, that's it's hard for you to see the good in it, that you're worried about how I will turn out, but I can't keep explaining it to you. I need you to realize that just because something is hard does not make it not worthwhile, in fact, it is more worthwhile BECAUSE it is hard. I am not miserable, if I was I would leave, I left CSUN did I not? and I wasn't completely miserable there, just dissatisfied. I need you to trust my judgment, because I can't keep you over this. Having to fight with you is part of what you see as me being "miserable." You think I will just automatically change my mind because YOU don't think I should be there, you who live in a safety bubble and do all you can to stay there, you who can't make a decision and stick with it to save your life. Well, here's my final response: I won't do this anymore. I BELIEVE I AM WHERE GOD WANTS ME TO BE. I'm sorry you don't agree, but since you're not the one who's in the situation, then it really doesn't matter does it? So back off, and maybe I'll survive the semester.