Monday, October 7, 2013

Midnight wonderings

Sometimes I find myself awake at 2:30 in the morning. Thankfully, this doesn't happen a whole lot, but when you have to be up at 6, it does get slightly irritating. Most of the time, I'll watch a few t.v. episodes on Netflix, or just surf the internet until I'm tired enough to sleep (or,as in this case, my brain decides to shut up enough :P) Anyway, that's my usual "go-to" for relaxation. It's generally pretty mind numbing, and can be quite effective. In fact, it's exactly what I had planned on when I realized, after laying in bed for an hour, that sleep just wasn't going to come easily tonight.

But then I had a thought. Actually, it was more like a little nudge from God. You know, the kind that convicts you, and lets you know that you could, and probably should be making better use of your time? Yeah. That one. Not in the "I have so much work to do, and so many things to organize, and lessons to plan, and if I do them now, I'll be less stressed later, and that's probably why I can't sleep anyway because I've gotten myself so wired over what needs to be done, if I just do it, I won't have to worry about it" kind of way. (And believe me, at 2:30 am, my brain is rambling almost exactly like that :P) Instead, this is the suggestion that perhaps I should take some time and rest in God. It's the conviction that reminds me I haven't done my quiet time in a while. It's the conviction that reminds me I haven't been to church on regular basis for a while (and believe me, the reasons are all good excuses! I promise! ;) I've been sick! I had to work! I had to interpret! The list goes on, but the results are the same. I haven't gone.)

And so I think God is gently reminding me that I need to spend some time with Him. Regardless of why I'm actually awake 3 1/2 hours before I need to be up for the day, I think God wants me to make wise use of this time. Perhaps it is His way of turning something evil (insomnia, which could quite easily make tomorrow miserable) into something good (an opportunity in my busy schedule to focus on him when the world is quiet, and nothing else really needs doing.) And perhaps it will make tomorrow a good day after all :)