Call to service

God has given me very specific gifts, talents, and desires. So far, I have pushed them aside, told God "I'll do it later," and focused on how to pay all of my bills. See the problem with this picture? Instead of saying yes to God, and really pursuing what He has told me to pursue, and relied on Him to provide for me, I have trusted in myself instead. "I don't have the time" or "I don't have the money." Since when does God need me to spend all of my time working in order to provide for me? Thankfully He didn't force me to live on less than what I thought I could live on, instead, He has provided me with the perfect job that has the perfect schedule. Now, it's time for me to stop making excuses (but I need more money so I can pay off my debt faster. Wouldn't that be honoring to God? Sure, if he had called me to a future that revolved around finances). It's time for me to make use of the free time He has given me, and pursue at least an aspect of His calling on my life. Right now, that doesn't seem to involve school. Right now, it all seems to tie in with the theme of building relationships. Instead of focusing on myself, it's time to start serving others. And when it doesn't seem to be going my way, then it's time to learn to pray about it, instead of running to myself and my ability to make money as a means of reassurance.