Being Me

My biggest struggle, my strongest temptation, my greatest fear, my deepest desire. Myself. How does one open themselves to others? How does one learn to be real? How does one stop hiding, stop running, stop fighting, stop trying. Being who you are made to be. It seems like it should be the simplest task in the world. Just stop trying to be everyone else around you. Live, Laugh, Love, right? It's never that easy. No matter how hard you try, there's always something holding you back. There's always some reason why what you say comes with an emotional shutdown, or a refusal to say it at all. I'm not sure which is worse. At least with the second, when you learn to say it, you know you have learned to trust. It is with the first that I struggle the most. I can say it, but I rarely feel it. It is safer that way. It tricks people into thinking that I am letting them in. I'm not. I want to, but I don't know how. And yet, being me is the most important thing of all. If I can't be me, then who am I? I am nothing, nothing at all. It is the most important lesson, and the only one that no one else can give you the answer to. Be yourself. It's that simple.