Priorities

As you can read here, today was quite productive. I'm really proud of how much I got done :) The thing that bothers me, however, is that the only reason I got up and got stuff done was because I absolutely HAD to. You see, if I had not gone to my appointment with the health center, I would have had to reschedule, and then that would have made it far more difficult to get all the rest of my Cambridge paperwork done.

The issue, then seems to be not how organized I am, but my priorities. If I deem it as really important, then I will get up for it. A good example of this would be work versus class. I have had morning classes before, but rather than stick them out, I skipped a whole bunch, then just dropped the class (with my ASL classes that is), whereas whenever I had a super early work shift I got up and went to it, because duh, if you miss class or drop it, it's not that big of a deal. you can always go back and take it some other time. If you miss a work shift, however, you get in MAJOR trouble, and quitting because I don't like the shifts I have would be dumb because it's hard to find a job and even harder to find one you like decently. I do not skip classes that I see as super important though (For example, I have never skipped a Torrey session just so that I could sleep in. I'm pretty sure that's the only class I have never done that with though)

So what is the difference? Well, I desperately wanted to be in Torrey, so screwing it up after trying so hard to get accepted would be stupid. Also, you can't pass Torrey if you skip classes, whereas most other classes I don't respect enough to worry about. I can pass them, and do so with good grades for the most part, even not showing up. I guess maybe it's a pride issue, but in my way of thinking if I can get good grades without showing up why should I? I'm obviously not learning anything in that class when I do show up because otherwise I wouldn't get good grades even though I am absent a lot.

This raises the question, then, what is important? What should I respect enough to deem it worthy to get up in the morning for it? Apparently this is something I need to figure out, or maybe not. Maybe the answer should be that it doesn't matter if *I* think it worth my time and attention, I am asked to be there, and the mature adult thing to do is to be there. *Sigh* being an adult is so difficult sometimes... :P