Apparently it's all Darwin's fault

I learned today in my Intro to Deaf Studies class that it was Darwin's book, "The Origin of the Species" that started all of the discrimination against deaf people. Since people believed his theory that humans came from apes, and since apes use hand motions to communicate, people began seeing signed language as no better than the hand motions used by the apes and must therefore not be a real language, but simply a primitive form of communication. It must therefore be forbidden for humans to use it. So, they started forcing oralism on deaf people, thinking they were helping them because they were educating them so that they would no longer be primitive like the apes, but advanced like other humans. This started it all. Kinda makes me wonder if their culture would be different if Darwin hadn't written his book? Probably slightly, or at least not based so much on rejection anyway.

All Good News!

For once, there is no bad news! Or any just "catch up" news either. :) I got my acceptance letter from Biola yesterday. No surprises, I got in. :) Apparently there's a lady in the office who knew Libby when she was there, so she wrote me a nice little note after signing her name. (I think it's Lindsey McKinley? ) And Sally and Andrew moved out, for good, apparently. This porbably shouldn't be good news, but it really is. Unfortunately, I'm glad they're gone. When I got back Sunday night all her stuff was gone, and I called on Tuesday night and her mom answered her phone and said that she wouldn't be coming back.Aaaaaaand, I got the job at the YMCA:) The interview on Tues. went well. They said that I'm one of the few college students who actually seems serious about getting an education, and not just partying all the time. :) Yay! So that's my good news. Let it make you happy. :)

Dinner

Yay!!! Dinner last night was AWESOME!!! They loved the casserole(thanks to the best cheese in the world. hehe) and the pie turned out great!!! (Emily, I looked for nine inch pie shell, and the label said 9", but there was still too much filling. Was it not really 9"?) Anyway, They fell in love with my cooking. :) Or at least Johnny did, Kate was already in love with it. :) We hung out and watched Enchanted(Good Movie!) and talked A LOT.Thanks again to mom(for the casserole ingredients, and recipe)and Emily(for the pie ingredients and recipe) :)

ahhhhh!!!!

I really don't know what to do. People keep asking me if I've made a decision, and when I tell them no, they do their best to convince me to stay. Last night a couple of my friends came over for dinner(the pie turned out GREAT by the Emily. :) ) and as we were eating they asked me what they could do to convince me to stay. I told them that I didn't really know, so they started throwing out ideas for fun, like Johnny giving me rides on his motorcycle every night. Then we really started talking about it seriously. Kate told me she thinks that I'm running. That was a question I asked myself, and didn't really know the answer to. She also pointed out the fact that I'm patient about staying in situations. Like with school. I'm unhappy, so I'm doing my best to get out of here as quickly as possible. I don't like working at Panda Express, so I applied for a job at the YMCA. I'm not really content to live for the present, I really spend a lot of my time looking to the future, planning ahead. That's not always a bad thing, cuz plans are good, but I think she's right in that I DO need to spend some time in the here and now. But also, I told them that I was thinking that since I've only really started trying to listen to God again, that maybe I'm not supposed to be here. That if I had listened to His guidance in the first place I would be at a Christian school, like Biola or Masters. She then pointed out that I'm not a very open person. I sorta pull into myself. Like how people offer to spend time with me, but I'm doin other things, or just don't call them to begin with. I think some of that is still just a reflex, but also she does have a point. How can I say I'm unhappy here if I don't reach out to the people around me? I'm honestly trying to not worry about making a decision right now, but to just wait it out, pray about it, and see what God says, instead of spending all my time thinking about it. But I feel like people are pushing me to make a decision RIGHT NOW! that I have to know soon, like we don' have another two full months of school for me to figure this out. It's so upsetting, because everyone here wants me to stay, but I feel a pull towards Biola, but I'm also wondering if that's just my emotions, because I have sort of a connection there, and I'd be near family. I would be starting all over again I know, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. I just really don't know, and I want to be at peace about this, but I'm just not. :(

Urgh

I just found out that my friend Candace is going to go to Masters, and my friend Andie from Camp is gonna go there too. Makes the decision that much harder. On a more positive note, I have my Torrey interview on April 4th!!! :)

Hanging out

I love hanging out with Kate and Johnny. We went to the Santa Monica Pier last night and played DDR and Air Hockey. We played in the sand and the water, and then just drove around and talked. The funny thing is that Johnny reminds me soooo much of Phillip. He's a confident driver, sarcastic, flirty. I don't know, its weird. It's like hanging out with Phillip when he's being nice. :) I realized that although I don't admit it, I really look up to Phillip, and being able to hang out with him is nice. So, even though I'm not around him, having Johnny around is like having Phillip around, and I think it helps with the homesickness a little bit. Besides that, it doesn't hurt that he is an AMAZING signer. :)

Motorcycles

I have officially had my first motorcycle ride! :) My friend has one and he gave me ride! It was soooo much fun!!! It was like riding a roller coaster!

Curious

I was wondering, if there is something you should probably say to someone, but you're afraid to say it to them in person, even though you know you will see them quite soon, is it ok to do it over the internet? Cuz I mean, it's more secure right? And yeah, it's less adult, but I hate confrontation, and doing it over the internet is so much easier.

Small World

Last night at Bible Study, one of my friends invited one of his friends to come. I met them on the way to Kate's house and we were talking a little bit. Turns out the guy, Mike was his name, went to CBU, and was a music major, so I asked him if he knew a guy named Billy Richards, who I met at camp, and was also a music major at CBU, he said he not only knew him, but went to Highschool with him. Billy went to Calvary Chapel Murrieta. That's the same school my sister-in-law taught at. Apparently, she gave him music theory lessons or something like that. :) Pretty cool huh?

Friends

Hehe, I really like the people here. My friend Kate has been hanging out with this guy Johnny and we all hung out together last night. He's really cool and he's like another brother to me. :) It was fun, 'cause we went to Vons and got a movie and some junk food, and just hung out all night. I really enjoyed it. :) I'm gonna miss her when she goes to Thailand. :(